I'm Getting Married!

Hi, everyone. I'm now back on track with this Xanga.com. I guess most of my friends know it already that I'm getting married. I'm getting married in 28th February 2010 which falls on the Chap Goh Meh of CNY.

I hadn't change any new boyfriend after the love of my life, Lucas Ng. He's the one who's gonna be my husband and the father of my child. I haven't been writting any journal here in Xanga as I was busy working on my wedding. I've uploaded my wedding pictures that my husband and I had took in France Taipei in Wedding Pictures album.

The pictures that I've took in France Taipei is for our marriage album. I uploaded these pictures doesn't mean that I'm married already. Don't get me wrong. I'm engaged now and the real date is on the 28th February 2010. With or without this marriage ceremony, Lucas and I had already been like husband and wife.

His family already treated me as one of the family members with or without the wedding ceremony. To make it more official, our family has decided to have wedding ceremony held after consultation and the best date for this marriage ceremony to be held is on the 28th February 2010.

I'm now almost 4 months pregnant and I'm feeling good about myself. The last time I went to my gynae, she told me that I'm 13 weeks pregnant. 13 weeks meant that the baby is 3 months and 1 week old in my stomach. I'll be going to my gynae again this Saturday. My relatives and friends that had been seeing me saying that I lost weight although I'm pregnant. A normal pregnant woman will gain weight rather than losing weight but I've been seen with losing more and more weight although I've ate more and more than I usually do.

To those who have been asking me not to wear high heels anymore don't worry. I'll stop wearing high heels when it's time. I hadn't been wearing high heels that much it's just that you guys have been seeing me with high heels that's all. I still party but I don't drink and smoke so don't worry about me. I know how to take care of myself and the baby. I love the baby more than anything else in this world. I'm having a child with the man I love the most in the end.

To those who can't wait to know the gender of my child, please be patient. THE MOTHER here is even more nervous than all of you. I'll ask my gynae this Saturday and I'll let you guys know whether the gender can be seen already or not.

I LOVE MYSELF, LUCAS AND MY BABY!!

Family business here I come

Believe it or not, I decided to take over my family business starting from the bottom definitely. Believe it! I'm going back to SP next week and I'll be helping my mum out in her hair saloon. I'll have to proof to my mum that I'll be able to take care of my family business. My dad's gonna be proud of me if he figure out that I've made the decision to take care of his business.

When my mum believed that I have the talent in hair styling and make up, my mum will send me to study make-up then hair styling. Can you believe it?? I can't believe it till now.

It's a heart break to leave Lucas in Penang all alone, but never mind we only won't be seeing each other on Thursday and maybe Friday. That's all. It's not that bad ain't it? When we don't see each other we'll be on webcam so it's seriously not that bad. It's just that we dunno how are we gonna sleep without each other . I mean we've been sleeping with each other in our arms through 7 months together.

It's gonna be hard but I have to coz I have to take care of my family business anyhow. It's been in the family for 20 plus years and if I don't take over then it'll fall into someone else's hands which is not what my dad wants it to be. Never in his dreams I guess.

Although I have no one to take advice for in this but I believe that I will be able to do it as it has been in my blood for bloody 20 years. I've been in my dad's hair saloon day and night every day since I was born. I've seen how things has been done. I'll not let it drop because of I have no capability to. I'll do everything that I can to take care of this family business.

I love my family and Lucas. I'll do it for my future and for my family. There's nothing else that I would rather do than doing this. I bet this is the only thing that I would do best.

LONG LIVE HONG'S PLACE! LONG LIVE HONG'S PROPHECY! LONG LIVE HONG'S FAMILY!

Once a bitch, always a bitch!

We've been together for 4 months now and it's gonna be the 5th month together with him next month on the 16th August. Lately, I've been worried bout him getting too close with other girls out there especially those girls that used to have feelings towards him before I met him.

Maybe i'm just being sensitive but I just can't help to think about it. It started when I found out that a girl named Suki kept on bugging him on I don't know what the fuck her problem is. First, her car was having some problem then aftr that she called him and asked who send him to work and to pick him up from work then he said Dennis is the one who drop him to work and I'm the one who pick him from work.

I was shocked when that fucking bitch asked him whether she can follow our car to Kedah Road or not. I was actually very rage of what she said but I don't want to show him that I was angry so I told him to make the decision himself.

I said to myself it's alright for this time as it's only the first time. Then after that another one night, she called Lucas again to ask for his favor and he didn't want to pick up her phone so I decided to pick it up for him. She asked for him and I said that he's asleep already and eventually that stupid bitch asked me whether I can wake him up or not so I said he sleep dead so it's hard for me to wake him up.

I mean what kind of bitch is that who will ask for someone's help when she already know that he already has a steady gf and eventually that fucking bitch know that I'm staying with him and still she disturbed us with her stupid little problems which Lucas didn't even give a damn about!

I feel like killing that bitch coz of her I kept on thinking about both of them having affair behind my back. I know they're not but eventually it seriously make me very angry to even think about her calling Lucas in the middle of the night!!

I told Lucas that I don't like her to disturb us all the while with the stupid little problems. He said that he'll tell her about it and till now he hasn't. I'm seriously thinking whether does he really loves me or he's just playing with me after all this 4 months together. When I asked him why didn't he tell her yet and he said they didn't talk so eventually he didn't get the chance to talk to her. I was thinking if he really loves me he'll call her up or sms her right away to let her know how I feel and he'll definitely shoo her off but he didn't. Sometimes I really wonder.

I'm the kind of person that keep the unhappy feelings inside me and no one will ever see it. I don't know who to tell this problem to, coz I know that if I do my friends will say that I'm too sensitive. I don't know what else to do and what else to say. I've tried my best. I trust him but I don't trust that bitch!!!

Fairy Tale??

i've always love fairy tales....i'd listen to fairy tales before i go to sleep when i was a kid....i hope to have a life like in the fairy tales when i was a kid....

after having 3 disappointed love story...in the end i finally found one....well it started a month ago...at first i took the risk to be with him as he seems to be a playboy to me...all this years of love relationship that i had was with playboys....

he looks like one but he's definitely not one...he's good-looking and he has the charmed that made me having the decision to put my life at risk to be with this man...his name is Lucas...we started on the 16th of March and he's living in Penang while i'm actually driving up and down from SP to Penang and it's tiring as i work in a night club in Penang....i started living at his house once we started this relationship....

it's been one month and seventeen days since we're together and eventually i'd been staying at his place for one month and seventeen days...well he live with his parents in a small apartment and eventually i get quite along with his mom although it's only for one month and seventeen days.....

he used to be a playboy after the failure to get back his ex-gf, Michelle, who get away with other guy....he was disappointed and then after that he was trying to get his love of his life....

he was single for a year or more and during that period of time he's been seen going out with a lot of girls that eventually i met him in a club and also that's why i thought of him as a playboy and eventually he does have the looks like one...he's a regular customer in the night club where i worked and eventually my boss has been telling me that he's a playboy....even though they didn't say anything, i always thought of him as a playboy....

after knowing me for 11 days, during a special Sunday night where he hung out in Soi 11 just opposite the night club that i worked...where he propose to have me as a gf was the most special night ever in my whole life....at first when we sat down in Soi 11 we were quite far apart and eventually after talking and drinking a few glass of beer and with the environment of all those sad love songs reminded me of the past 3 relationships that i had which was a failure....and eventually i cried and when i was crying i weep...he knew that i was crying and he asked me to look into his eyes and eventually he used his fingers to wipe off the tears that was at my face and my eyes....after that we began to sit closer to each other....

that is how everything beautiful in this world for me begins....he's been telling me that this relationship has been the most beautiful relationship that he ever wanted....at first i thought it was just a lie for a sweet talker like him...

but after 2 weeks being together he eventually introduces me to his closest friends and i also knew those close friends of his where i worked in a restaurant before and the owner of the restaurant son is one of his closest friends and eventually it wasn't actually ackward for me to meet up with his closest friends....

since then, he changed my mind from a playboy to a man that i've dreamt of having....and i realized that this is the fairy tale that i've been searching for.....since then too, i started to have faith in this relationship and i've put all my effort to make this relationship work so that it will last till the day that i die....

well to those out there who are still searching for the right one, you just have to be patient coz eventually you might not know when will your true love or the right one will come to you...

see ya!!!chaozz!!!

True Love!! Yes or No??

sorry for not posting anything for the past 3 months...i've been busy doing my stuffs....now i'm having the best time of my life....the last post was stated that i 've been hurt again by someone i love...well now i found someone else...for the first time in my life's history i'm serious with a chinese guy...his name is LUCAS NG!!

i've been hanging out with him everyday.....i met him in the club which i worked at....before this relationship started which was last 5 days, he asked me to accompany him to his colleague's wedding dinner and he said that i can't declined that request so i have no choice but to say yes....

when he eventually asked me to the wedding dinner i knew that there was some  affection going on from him towards me but i just pretend not to know a thing....after the wedding dinner i went back to the club where i worked and  he came in as well....but eventually he got drunk....

so he went back first and then after that i got drunk and i slept at my club manager's house....i woke up the next day and i thought of him so i called him and  asked whether i can go over to his house to take my shower or not as i'm feeling very comfortable....

to my surprise he said yes....that day his mum was at home as well but eventually he still bring me there with my condition of looking very bad....after taking my shower my mum called me and told me that i have to take her bf back to SP, my hometown....

so eventually i asked Lucas whether he wanna accompany me back to SP or not and to my surprise he agreed as well....so three of us went back together and at that time he was not my bf yet....but eventually some of my family members were there and eventually they thought that he's my bf.....

then after that he dropped me back to my house so that i could change my clothes into something i'm comfortable with....after that we went for our dinner and after our dinner we get back to Penang....we hung out at Soi 11 at Penang....

and then after that with all my courage i asked him whether he have any special feelings or affection towards me or not and at first he wasn't willing to tell me the truth so he said "i'll answer your question if you promise that you'll answer my question" and i said ok and then he asked me the same question which i asked him for the first place...i said yes to him and then i waited for awhile to listen to his answer and at last he admitted that he likes me....

so we talked and talked and talked....in the end of the conversation he raised a question...and the question was "i want you to be mine so will you be mine??" and to my surprise i said yes as eventually i never said yes to a chinese guy before and he's the first......

 and now here we are as happy couple.....i've never been so happy in my life before....hopefully he's the one for me and this is really the true love that i've been finding all this while....

SO TO END THIS STORY, I WOULD LIKE TO SAY ' I LOVE YOU LUCAS NG'